 1. Countless lifetimes past Was I Thy votary fast Thou were my Source my all As the world's allure did pall 2. But forgetful wretch that I art I allow'd myself from Thee to part Drifting from Thy holy refuge Ag'inst my mind's deadly deluge 3. And toss'd and turn'd, steering alone On seas whose fury Thou had'st borne Claiming victory's freshness at every crest To be dashed next moment in the tempest
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4. Wandering lost in the desert of desire
Chasing the mirage of purpose's sire
Where fulfillment fanned flames first
As saltwater does a castaway's thirst
5. Strutting in ignorance of ignorance
In the darkness of Primal arrogance
Till at last with spirit vanquished
I called out desperately anguished
6. Pleading for surcease and relief
Petitioning powers with dim belief
Sinking, knees bent in fatigue and failure
I prayed despondent, in abject surrender
 7. Lo! You blazed silent and still As the Beacon from Eternity's Hill A blinding flame cool and bright From my Heartcave in thoughtless delight 8. Reminding me of our eternal connection Silencing my senses with the recollection Of the port of safety that always existed In the depths of my being where "I" is fixated 9. Beguiling my mind with Thy innocent smile Thou did'st feed me Thy nectar free of guile Bewitching my heart in the dead of the night You transfixed and consumed me in Thy Light 10. Never again my gaze shall I turn From Your Beacon that does ego burn Nor leave for long Thy Name, that chant That thrilled my being as honey to an ant 11. Gripped since in the jaws of Your Gaze Guided hence through life's maze Thou let me win and lose with freedom And revel in Thee with sporadic abandon 12. Thy Leash's on my neck, Your Hill is the peg Now letting me range and graze as far as I beg Tasting bitter herbs and lush sweet grasses And drinking the waters of faraway places 13. Enough this spurious freedom! This fake liberty! This granting of pleasures sweetened by adversity Tighten Thy Leash and destroy my range Bring me home no foreigner strange. 14. O' "I Am" revealed, shining forth as all How could Thou let this delusion fall? Can the One be confused as the Many? If Thy will did not veil this epiphany 15. Verily by Thy Hand does this Delusion prevail Show Thy Mercy and remove mankind's travail That brother may not slaughter brother And Thy Holy Lands be not torn asunder 16. Standing silent, Thou put to shame Scholarly intellect's vain-glorious claim To grasp Thee with duality's meager span "Be Still", Thou said "And know That I Am" 18. Didn't Thy Elder Prince, Divinity's Fruit winner Beg Immortality's Nectar from the Cave Dweller That we may taste the flavor of liberation In crumbs from their table of deliberation 19. Such Thy Greatness, what merit does now shower The favor of Thy disdain on this hapless beggar O' Lord! Grant my eyes Thy eternal Light The glorious blaze that puts fear to flight 20. Ego hast made a janitor of me, the king Granting me a refuse cart for the hauling Bestow now the Grace of Thy sweet fragrance And destroy the stench of this foul existence 21. O' Dancing Beggar of the Cremation pit By Your command I stand, a spendthrift Cast now upon me Thy Graceful Glance Ere I squander this soul's inheritance 22. Thy Will addicted this mind to pleasure Now luring me if You wait your leisure This soul will drink Maya's stagnant water Like sand swallowed by the crazed traveler 23. Which parent lets a child play with fire? Can Thou see me fall, standing as my Sire Play no longer this mischievous game Lest the world speak of You in shame. 24. Kama devour'd Vishwamitra in a trice Can I win freedom then from this vice? You who consumed Kama in a stray Glance Are my refuge, O' Lord, my only Deliverance 25. Dazzle me not with Maya's peacock fan Lurking b'neath is Thy serpent's fang Stand forth my Lord blazing bright Consume me in Thy Eternal Light 26. My vasanas crash on me evermore. As surging waves on the ocean shore Borne by the weight of my Karma They shatter my resolve of Dharma 27. As an infant building castles of sand I struggle in my Sadhana to stand O' Saviour of Parvati's sand idol Enfold me in Thy Arms Bridal 28. O' Lord of all beings, worlds and lands Weighted by failings, condemned I stand I come seeking Thy sanctifying Grace Turn me not away from Thy Embrace 29. O' Hunter of souls, Divine Archer beyond compare Was errant Thy Gaze as Thy Arrow shot here And grazed my heart with this unhealing wound Now Knowledge reigns not with Ignorance unswoon'd 30. Or is it Thy sport, that You prefer To see this soul move in dazed stagger Grasping by turn at scripture and worlds In vain quest for relief as agony swirls 31. Be Still and Surrender Thou said 'Tis easy for Thee to speak from Thy bed When even surrender is by Thy command Who shall bow to whom, I pray demand 32. O' Beloved of the Unsuckled One! I beseech Ye! Hear me, Your son Cast Your snare, hunt and trap Your prey Feed on this mind in Your own Mystic way 33. Boldly in his father's lap does the prince play Even so have I spoken with liberty today O' Eye of my eyes, see my heart and take no offense Enfold me in Thee and sweet liberation do dispense 34. Grant these ears, this tongue Thy glorious Name The mysterious sound that pervades my frame Grant my taste, my touch Thy Lotus Feet The sweet softness that makes my heartbeat 35. Grant my thoughts, my desires Thy steady Gaze The clarity of vision that guides through the maze Grant my speech, my hands Thy Healing spell The sacred power that does delirium dispel 36. But if this plea, Thou does not hear For my want of strength or purpose clear Still hast Thou granted me a way to Thee A path simple and clear to where Thou Be  37. This Leash on my neck tethered to Thy Hill Is all I need to bring me to Thy Will Thus going round and round and round as I graze Thy Name in my heart and Thy Hill in my gaze 38. Tightening the Leash with every turn Shortening my range until I burn Naked and innocent in Thy glorious blaze At Thy Feet and Hill under Thy watchful Gaze 39. When I and Thou shall be no more And all is Thee and I evermore Where Silence dances its sacred Dance In Eternal Action and Eloquence 40. Thus as I pleaded to Thee in fervor Lovingly did Thou come to my succor And as fear and bewilderment did rise When Maya threatened to cloud my eyes 41. Mercifully Thou loosened its terrible grip And with gentle care did not let me slip Commanding my birth in Thy votaries lineage That I may be guided by Thy firm parentage 42. Guiding my sire's footsteps to bring me to You In my twenty-second year, to hold Thee true While You revealed my Self free of any vice Crushing my mind so my heart may realize 43. That Life and Death was your puppet And I, only a guest at your banquet That indeed I was never ever born 'Cos everything moves in You as One 44. The sinner and the saved are indeed in You As are the diseased and healthy too In You are the prince and the pauper As are also the judge and the robber 45. The infant and the ancient move as one In You my Lord! O' Five-faced One One indeed is the lover and the loved As are also me and my wife beloved 46. My children and I are but one As are my parents and I their son My siblings and I are but one Playing in innocence for Your fun 47. My friends and my enemies are none Other than You my Lord! O' Holy One Thy Feet are my crown, Thy Name on my tongue Mute is my throat for other praise to be sung 48. And all I had ever given or received as mine Was already assured long before my time I was only the instrument in Your eternal game Were I not there, action would occur all the same 49. And my only free will was either deny or surrender To Thy Supreme Will that ruled all here and yonder And that there is no victory to have since Than to abide as "I" and nothing else hence 50. Knowing that You have given all this as a gift To enjoy, experience, and share to uplift That I be the custodian, your trustee These gifts used for You, this life as a fee 51. Revealed have Thou the nature of Maya As naught but the surf of Thy Leela When all action is but Thy movement Where is room for my achievement?  52. Oh! Glorious indeed is this infinite freedom Neither sunset nor sunrise in this kingdom Gone the incessant drumbeat of the worldly race Vanish'd as the morning mist before Thy Face 53. When even Death is at Thy Feet abiding Why need I worry about the morning? Fearless do I stride amidst men with bowed crown Favoring none with fawning smile or scowling frown 54. All lifetimes are now dreams for me Stretching ever onwards to infinity Truly there is neither bondage nor liberation The thought of either is fevered delusion 55. No world, no galaxy, nor heaven nor hell Nothing save "I" exists with none other to tell And in this glorious silence of unitary existence Occurs eternal cycles of creation and destruction 56. Springing forth eternally as dream thoughts within Me Where satisfaction and frustration are but dreams to see Can I sport in aught else, having tasted the Bliss of My Self? Who bathes in foam when spring waters pour off the shelf? 57. Gone the doubts of petty existence Who is there for their persistence? Neither are these thoughts denied Who remains for them to be belied? 58. Let them stand or fall on their own accord Attention to them I can no more afford I did'nt call them forth so sustain 'em I can't Let the power that birth'd 'em meet their want 59. Indeed in this state divine powers do accrue But none remains to wield 'em, that is true Gone forever is the fantasy of omnipotence As also the dark nightmare of impotence 60. Gone the prayer as well as the supplicant Consumed by a matted hair mendicant No blazing light here nor darkness of ignorance Nothing save Consciousness's Blissful Existence 61. Still dream creation needs action to fulfill So this dream body is moved by Thy Will While I remain as "I" and this as this Silent I AM, none to claim as his. 62. Paltry indeed is the common tongue of duality That speaks of MY state in terms of plurality Indeed no word can exist when all is One Nothing but Silence indeed is MY tongue 63. Undifferentiated and pristine I remain supreme But to say even this is verily to blaspheme Who is there to describe MY condition Where redemption exists not nor any perdition 64. Unbound by good and evil do I freely roam Neither fortune nor calamity shakes my bones No auspicious date or time for me exist Indeed in Me does all creation persist 65. All duties, roles and action are as play to me Unfettered by their results I now walk free Intoxicated by Bliss, in Thee do I drunkenly roam To passersby, the lights are on but nobody's home 67. If duality has to be assumed for creation perchance Then let it be said that this is Thy Cosmic dance Where creation, expansion and dissolution Cycle endlessly in harmonious perpetuation 68. Galaxies arise spontaneously from the Self Shooting like spray from a rocky shelf Untouched by all action is this Consciousness As the ocean beneath the cyclone's viciousness 69. No slothful slumber of blankness is My state Though outwardly I may assume that fate Vibrant in incessant action I do remain Eternally moving in Stillness all the same 70. Simple indeed is the path to Thee No effort needed to simply Be Indeed that is where I always am To believe otherwise is delusion's span 71. But to those enamored of complex stratagems Let them hear and practice these eternal gems As lived and instructed by Thee, Guru Ramana So all may be free from the burden of their vasana 72. Sitting in any posture of personal comfort Practice diligently with single-minded effort Watch the tides of thy breath as they rise and fall And soon the mind will be held in its thrall 73. And as each thought, image and sound Rushes forth to parade around Ask who it is that watches And know I as the witness 74. Watching thus the witness unil you're adept Then realization dawns that this too is a concept Verily a thief 'tis in policeman's garb Moving in circles to outwit the mob 75. Discard even the watcher, and now remain Silent and Still as "I", your eternal domain Fleeting as quicksilver on a metal plate Will the first glimpses be of this State 76. Be not seduced by visions mighty and grand Or even hope for them as marks of your stand Why would you limit the Self to blazes of light When that which you seek lies beyond sight 77. No milestone exists nor compass to navigate No yardstick of duality to fathom this state Discard all methods of the intellect and seize thy fate Know Being by Experience direct, as thy eternal state 78. Like wafting fragrance of the night's jasmine Effort on this path shall permeate your being Until meditation proceeds as the undercurrent Of activity regardless the distracting moment 79. Be unperturbed by the passage of time Time is memory and no concern of thine When all creation stands on the "I" thought Past, present and future are empty as nought 80. If any disciplinary aid should thou seek Discard the consumption of animal meat Food is the fuel and substance of the mind This discipline is a useful one thou wilt find 81. The doing of kriya's and karma's thine Chanting of mantra's and songs divine As crutches they are to the limping lame These acts do focus the mental frame 82. Each in its own time has its rightful place As sequential steps in the spirit's pace Neither greater nor lesser are they behold Each seeker's need do they uniquely mold 83. But stay not thou in kindergarten forever Since indeed bidden art thou to rise yonder 'Cos action's power can only yield fruits But never the insight that severs the roots 84. And what be the fruit of action? Except the seed of more action Commanding the birth of future lives Busy as bees attending their hives 85. The joy you get from all worldly actions Arises from the Self as a blissful reaction On subsidence of the performing entities Letting you taste Being free of identities 86. Confuse not source of the Bliss so obtained With all the preceding actions that reigned As a wind-blown tree, that fell as the crow alighted By fools believed, as by the bird's weight blighted 87. Begin not the pursuit of happiness thru' action Like wounding oneself for the relief of a lotion Be not a dog chewing bones, bleached in the sun And reveling in the taste of its own bleeding gum 88. But action performed sans attachment Has no capacity to shackle thy raiment Indeed doership is bondage's essence It's absence is liberation's presence 89. Surrendering all actions to God as an offering In one stroke wilt thou put an end to suffering When all actions are but the Lord's domain Thine is blessed freedom in that which remains 90. As passengers on a train are we all With loads of karma in our carry-all Imbeciles groan with loads on their head As the train with loaded rider rolls ahead 91. The wise one, with luggage at his feet And the burdened cretin, in his seat Indeed the same destination do they reach But their attitude decides the fate of each 92. Good it is to chant the Holy Sound Better it is to whisper it around Greater still is the mental chant Yet supreme is it to Be the Chant 93. Seeking the sound of the chanted mantra Using Self Inquiry's method as the tantra Ask whence from the chanter springs forth Rejecting all mental forms as of little worth 94. Diligently seek thee the source within And on finding it, do subside therein Only by such effort shall true Tapas reign So promises Ramana of Virupaksha fame 95. All scriptures are but maps of the way in To the state of Being lying in thee within Erudite fools argue and contest the map While the simple sage drinks Being's sap 96. The scholar lost in libraries under the sun Spends his days relearning the number one His years of erudite effort rank not above A single moment of self-dissolving Love 97. Varna's, ashrama's, castes and creed Are but divisions of the mental breed On knowing Brahman a Brahmin is he Knowing all else a Chandaala he be 98. Yet without a teacher's Grace Impossible it is to see His Face Verily the teacher as the Guru Is the Self known as "Ulluru" 99. But for the ardent seeker struggling with fate The Guru will arrive and guide him to His State This is an incontestable Truth, have faith my son Indeed the Guru and the Self are but one 100. Pushing him from without as the Self pulls him in Never doubt the Guru is the Self's inseparable twin Ego's destruction is assured in the Guru's maw As the fate of the prey caught in the tiger's jaw 101. Blessed is he on whom falls the Guru's Gaze He has received the key out of Maya's maze Surrender your all at the Sat Guru's Feet Hurry my son, reclaim your Heavenly Seat  102. Gentler by far than the mother that bore me Is my Guru Ramana standing before me Radiant as a million suns, cooler than the full moon His Gaze has stolen my heart, my ego's in a swoon 103. Having crazed me with love He sends me to roam In lands of the lost and blind far from home Cloaked in a healer's garb, I now stand at the post While residing beneath, it is He who heals the host 104. Who but Ramana of Patala Linga fame Residing at Arunachala in Guha's name Speaks today in me in the English tongue As this verse bubbling forth to be sung 105. O' Lord perfumed by Vaachakar's lilting prose Wreathed by the garlands of Muruganar's verse I offer Thee this crazed rant with heartfelt devotion O' Wearer of Kannappan's spittle as a body lotion 106. Praise be the Blessed Feet of Guru Ramana That crowns my head, standing as Vaamana Praise be the Holy Hill of Arunachala Hope's Eternal Beacon called Sonachala 107. Praise be Mother Allagama's holy shrine At the feet of Aruna Hill, forever Thine Praise the Divine Effulgence of Karthikai's Beacon The Eternal Light that to all seekers does beckon 108. To Thee I offer humbly my faltering praise With trembling voice and tears on my face Fathered by the sun, this moon child stands As Ravichandran bowing with folded hands [The above was written by an Arunachala-Ramana devotee currently living in the U.S.]
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